Well, i'm 16 years old and i have this weird addiction. I think im addicted to porn. I saw it first in some?

playboy magazine whe i was about 9 years old. But I never really thought much of it. Last yr i used to go on google images and look at their images for sex position and all of that. But now.. its gotten worst. Its so crazy, sometimes i would be online looking for ways to stop this addiction, but then i'd go onine and watch it again. I tried telling my sister and my boyfriend. But the thought of telling others makes me feel so gross inside. Im really religious, i pray and ask the ord to forgive me. But i bet he's tired of hearing me repent for the same thing. I'm running out of options here and i just don't know what to do. I don't want this curiosit thing that i have to run my life. I just wish all of those images i've seen can just dissapear. Its changing me, from the way i act with others, i never feel like myself, and my body disgusts me. My family and friend relationships feel ruined, and I NEED HELP! I check almost all of the sites online and i can't find one that i can actually use to help me. I don't want to go to hell, and i don't want to e a bad person. But it seems like this is going to take over my life. Somedays i just want to lock myself away from the world. CAN SOMEONE PLEASE HELP ME! i would try to gt councling, but that would mean i would have to tell my dad, and i can't do that. My parents are really strict and i don't want them thinking im a slut or anything. When i told my sis, she couldn't help me. Bringing up the topic to otheres is so hard, because noone around me would expect me to have this kind of addiction. I get good grades, and i seem all "goody," but im actually really hurting. Who would have imagined that one book could ruin your life. I UST NEED HELP... and i don't know where ele to turn too. Im tired of saying that im going to quit and then going on the internet nd looking at those sex videos again. But its so hard, and its so weird to tell people. PLEASE HELP!